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The last time

  This has been a totally miserable pregnancy for me, and the only reason I'm documenting it is for my own personal records. This kind of rant is uncharacteristic for me given that I usually love being pregnant so I apologize in advance for the negativity.
  As I've said before, this one caught us off guard and although we are thrilled to welcome this little girl into our family, it did take some getting used to, making this pregnancy an emotional roller coaster for the both of us.
  I had just lost 10 lbs and was working toward my goal weight when the news came, and I was sick almost immediately so the working out stopped and I was devastated to have to put my health goals on hold. I was nauseous and throwing up until 20 weeks, the nausea has never fully gone away causing food (particularly breakfast) to be the enemy for the last 8 months. I eat what I can tolerate and probably shouldn't admit it but have given in to the urge to make chocolate pudding cake twice a week.
  I went straight from throwing up, to heartburn and shortness of breath and as of the last month have been sore from head to toe. Yep, you name it, back, hips pelvis, feet and so on making the 2 flights of stairs in my house feel like Mount Everest and every other household task seem impossible. Heaven help my poor family!
  On the brighter side, I have been very blessed by the generosity of family, friends and neighbors. I was a bit panicked by the fact that I had gotten rid of almost all of my baby stuff but so many wonderful people in my life have stepped in to give me clothes, a car seat, a bassinet and more... and most importantly the support and encouragement I've so desperately needed to get through this, I will definitely do my best to pay it forward!
  I must give credit to my husband and my little Taevin who have been as helpful and empathetic as any 2 boys can be.
  Only one month left until I can meet this little girl and to say that I'm anxious would be an understatement, but I have enjoyed every opportunity to see her waving at me via ultrasound and trying to soak up every little kick knowing that this is the last time I'll get to experience this kind of miracle. As hard as this has been, I wouldn't trade it for anything!

 


 

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  1. good luck! you can do it!! can't wait to see the pics you'll post of this little girl!

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  2. I can't wait to see her and to hold her and love her (oh yes, I will be stealing her from time to time. ;0)) I think you're amazing. Hang in there!!!

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  3. Oh Amy. I feel bad this has been so hard on you. You are a rockstar. I can't wait til she makes her arrival! You can do it! Less than a month! Yay!

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